hmmm. girls are nothing but trouble and guys like to find trouble for themselves.
i made up my mind, i want to give her the freedom she asks for.
which means, her being single again.
i will not ask for more since in the first place she doesn't want to be attached at this moment of time.
this is something which i have never done before for someone i love but anyway,
i believe i can do it.
i also believe that i will not put anything into a relationship again.
girls suck, and i mean it.
I NEED TO START STUDYING!
motivation is running out since the start of sem and
i'm waking up later and reaching school later
work isn't done, and i'm not studying at ALL.
it is time to WAKE UP!
NO MORE SLACKING! NO MORE PROCRASTINATION! NO MORE LAZY ATTITUDE!
hi once again. haha. im finally blogging and not feel weird about it. :D.
woke up late as usual for tuesday, almost got debarred from micro.
took the stairs up 6 FREAKING floors and luckily i made it.
its time i concentrate on my studies and to sacrifice time for my baby.
welll, i did managed to complete my micro tutorials for two weeks st8. (:
a good start isn't it, but...
I JUST REALISED ITS EXAM IN 2 WEEKS OMFG! LOL.
apart from exams, i still want to maintain gyming.
i'll be gyming with china tmr and pushing for muscles! haha.
got my hair cut today, was shorter than the last time i got it cut.
im broke, waiting for pay to be banked in.
need a new bag cause it will give way anytime
need a GOOD CAMERA to capture photos to post here cause its getting too wordy.
all these needs time cause i have to earn the cash.
HAIL NUM! :D.
and baby, i miss u quite a lot since the start of the day.
life without you is real boring can.
just got to remember the priority on hand and not digress into missing you so much.
and you!
better study cause i don't want you to fail cause of us and stuff.
imma go try the impossible mission of starting to study Bstats cause i know no shit on it.
cheers people!
:D. RETARD SIGNING OFF
had a real shagged day. barely slept for 3 hours with a long day at school.
and clique! stop influencing me to think bad about my girl.
i feel so useless for being affected by what they said. anyway, i love my girl the way she is, what she had done which they felt wrong.
it isn't wrong, it's just not acceptable for them for me to love her the way she is.
i give my baby the due respect for a lot of stuff but was condemned for doing so. :/. hope this idiot understands how i felt. ):
and look what i done, wrong for a minute, guilty for a day, blamed for a week, hurt for a month, and etched in the heart FOREVER.
i'll never forgive myself for what i done, but i'll still stay strong and live life the way it was.
needless to say, i still miss my baby. i still love her. it's just that maybe i wasn't mature or ready for another love. i suck totally.
i just have to face the fact that she's pissed off at me, and i have to think over what i done, including not talking to her at all.
which means that life sucks.
but i did succeed in controlling my emotions, not being a total wimp of being afraid of losing a relationship.
i have got lots to tell her but this isn't the time.
maybe the best way now is to give each other time
i will smoke to better control myself, but i promised to smoke lesser. so, i will do it.
alright, thats all. (:
tmr will be a better day, i hope. and i really want her back.
this idiot loves the retard and i know it.
this post is for you, love.
- retard
