had a real shagged day. barely slept for 3 hours with a long day at school.
and clique! stop influencing me to think bad about my girl.
i feel so useless for being affected by what they said. anyway, i love my girl the way she is, what she had done which they felt wrong.
it isn't wrong, it's just not acceptable for them for me to love her the way she is.
i give my baby the due respect for a lot of stuff but was condemned for doing so. :/. hope this idiot understands how i felt. ):
and look what i done, wrong for a minute, guilty for a day, blamed for a week, hurt for a month, and etched in the heart FOREVER.
i'll never forgive myself for what i done, but i'll still stay strong and live life the way it was.
needless to say, i still miss my baby. i still love her. it's just that maybe i wasn't mature or ready for another love. i suck totally.
i just have to face the fact that she's pissed off at me, and i have to think over what i done, including not talking to her at all.
which means that life sucks.
but i did succeed in controlling my emotions, not being a total wimp of being afraid of losing a relationship.
i have got lots to tell her but this isn't the time.
maybe the best way now is to give each other time
i will smoke to better control myself, but i promised to smoke lesser. so, i will do it.
alright, thats all. (:
tmr will be a better day, i hope. and i really want her back.
this idiot loves the retard and i know it.
this post is for you, love.
- retard
