love is the reason why we are here. we are born because of love we are here to spread it. now i have found it but i'm actually putting it aside for other stuff. how contradicting isn't it.
someone tell me what to do. haha. :/.
typing since, @ 1:47 AM
Friday, December 26, 2008
Ignorance is bliss
feigning silence,
i am really not sure about what i did, i fell into a pit, desperately trying to get out of it to get a better view of things.
i'm so damn sober about what i'm doing, something which i've never done before, something which i'm so damn unsure about.
i'm so sorry if i have to leave like that, it's because i'm afraid i'd turn back, and my life will get screwed up again.
i do still love you, that's the reason why i had to escape, to run away from it. i'm easily influenced, easily changes my mind. i definitely don't want that to happen. i'm sorry i had to do this, feign drunk or whatever you call it. don't look up on me, and i hope you like the present i gave you.
loves, retard.
typing since, @ 1:23 AM
Thursday, December 25, 2008
NewUrbanMale
reached home at 3 plus. went out after work with my colleagues and my boss, Shenzi. he's a wonderful guy. though he's gay. lol. haha.
felt emo for awhile, felt me and my baby couldn't make it through the third month. it's not cause my feelings for her have faded. it's cause i do not have time to love her. don't wanna treat her unfair. i love her. i want the best for her. as well as me lah. well, it's really gonna be a major change in my life without her. hope i am doing the right thing mature is the bhb way of saying this, but i do love her still.
i hope she reads this cause i'm not gonna ask for a break-up. just remain silent about loving each other. how romantic right. haha. love isn't just the thing for me right now. i may have changed cause of alot of things going on, work, dance, gym, more importantly, studies, friends and family. baby i just hope you "always be my baby". mwa. <3.
First thing first! out to all those people out there who read my blog who has photos of danzation, please please please send me!
*************************************************************** it's gonna be busy weeks starting from now till school starts. catching up with secondary school friends, close friends, and also my baby!
she's a poor girl, her boyfriend has no time for her. :D. i'm guilty but at least we're able to keep it tgt.
LOVES, NRA, DANCE nothing can stop us now, it's the last show for the year, spread the love to all dancers in Singapore.
time is running out, i should rest now, perform my best tmr, and show the world what we've got.
Dance, Dance, Dance Dance like there's nobody looking.
After this it will be all work and studies, and also updating my blog regularly, updating templates, and work up on the things i wanted to do.
Last but not least, DANCE IS LOVE, NRA IS LOVE. i will never forsake this ever again.
typing since, @ 1:38 AM
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Nothing can make up for this
Can you tell me How can one miss what she's never had How could I reminisce when there is no past How could I have memories of being happy with you boy Could someone tell me how can this be How could my mind pull up incidents Recall dates and times that never happened How could we celebrate a love that's too late And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say
I missed the times that we almost shared I miss the love that was almost there I miss the times that we use to kiss At least in my dreams Just let me take my time and reminisce I miss the times that we never had What happened to us we were almost there Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had Never almost had you
I cannot believe I let you go Or what I should say is I shoulda grabbed you up and never let you go I shoulda went out with you I shoulda made you my boo boy Yeah that's one time I shoulda broke the rules I shoulda went on a date Shoulda found a way to escape Shoulda turned a almost into If it happend now its to late How could I celebrate a love that wasn't real And if it didn't happen why does my heart feel
I missed the times that we almost shared I miss the love that was almost there I miss the times that we use to kiss At least in my dreams Just let me take my time and reminisce I miss the times that we never had What happened to us we were almost there Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had Never almost had you
(sometimes I wanna rub ya, some nights I wanna hug ya) And you seem to be the perfect one for me You (some nights I wanna touch ya but tonight I wanna love ya) You're all that I ever wanted And you're my everything yes its true Boy its hard to be close to you My love I know it may sound crazy But I'm in love with you
I missed the times that we almost shared I miss the love that was almost there I miss the times that we use to kiss At least in my dreams Just let me take my time and reminisce I miss the times that we never had What happened to us we were almost there Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had Never almost had you
I missed the times that we almost shared I miss the love that was almost there (sometimes I wanna rub ya) I miss the times that we use to kiss At least in my dreams Let me take my time and reminisce (but tonight I wanna love ya) I miss the times that we never had What happened to us we were almost there Whoever said its impossible to miss when you never had Never, never almost had you (but tonight I wanna love ya)
It's danzation this friday and saturday. It's training almost everyday till 10. 11.30 i reach home wanting to see her. but i can't find her cause there's training the next day again. I cannot sacrifice for her, but thing is, She doesn't seem to understand.
Tmr i get a free day off and i want to spend it with my baby. But shes no longer my baby. She claims she loves me. I don't feel it. Now i need her non-wavering support. She failed. I don't have time for her. She wants a break-up. I tried to reach into her the past two days. I failed. I tried for the last time at around 1.50am, I failed again. All these is hitting me so strong that, Now i want a break-up. Yes, i did make her feel shit too by flirting. I did my best to tell her but to get this shit. I did make her feel like shes waiting for nothing. I did my best to patch things up. I want to find her, but NOT at the expense of feeling shag tmr for training. What would you do if you were in my place? Tell me about it.
typing since, @ 1:46 AM
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Holidays
NO TIME AGAIN! it is ever gonna be so busy again for me, performance in a week's time straight after exams(THINKING OF THIS MAKES ME ESTATIC), work after performance week(need to pia), create a post for my great grandfather(need at least 1 to 2 hours), update my template for blog(need a full day), and so on and on and on and on.
when can i ever get a good rest :/. anw,,, let's look at it in a better way, i'm SUPER BLESSED right now, and from all the things i have right now, i have to HOPE, CHANGE, IMPROVE, STRIVE, MAINTAIN AND CHERISH.
I L.O.V.E YOU BABY.
~~ (._.)
typing since, @ 1:56 AM
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Shag
this is one hell of a crazy edit for a html noob for me. did this blog throughout the night cause there's too many things i don't know.
anw, i did complete it half way. i still want to touch up on the side bars. there's no music, no wishlist and etc. well i'm really shagged now and i'm typing in a nonsensical manner.
nights guys :).
typing since, @ 8:21 AM
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Dance
this will be quite a short post. haha.
trained and cleaned moves just now and perspired like a dog. this sucks cause performance is in like 2 FREAKING WEEKS. AND EXAM STARTS THIS SAT AND AND I STILL HAVE TRAINING! RAWR! hope i dont forget my steps which i just prac. :/. and pray that i dont forget moves. haha. ESP during performance.
anw, i'm really tired and i should go bathe now. ciao ppl!
typing since, @ 1:54 AM
Monday, December 1, 2008
Time
BABY! HAPPY ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY! LOVES! :*.
hahaha. its one month since we are together. let's all work hard to stay together forever!
hmmm. it's been months i talked to hui ling. this joker retained! i can't believe this but, nvm, life still goes on and i believe from this she can be stronger. :). just like how i became less vulnerable to setbacks. your a really nice girl and you should cherish life even more. :). SO STOP GAMING SO FREQUENTLY AND GET A LIFE!
lol. this post is for you, LOW HUI LING the retarded joker that sat beside me. baby, dont jealous! haha. :D.
