feigning silence,
i am really not sure about what i did,
i fell into a pit,
desperately trying to get out of it to get a better view of things.
i'm so damn sober about what i'm doing,
something which i've never done before,
something which i'm so damn unsure about.
i'm so sorry if i have to leave like that,
it's because i'm afraid i'd turn back,
and my life will get screwed up again.
i do still love you,
that's the reason why i had to escape,
to run away from it.
i'm easily influenced, easily changes my mind.
i definitely don't want that to happen.
i'm sorry i had to do this, feign drunk or whatever you call it.
don't look up on me, and i hope you like the present i gave you.
loves, retard.
